VavaBeeb

My name is Vivienne, most people call me Vava, and im a red headed anime loving spaz ball :D

im a photographer/model and art student by day, and a Dreamer of worlds and sounds by night. Acting has been in my blood since birth and thats where my roads lead. the Paranormal and the unknown excite me, and i believe in things many people consider to be childish. I believe there is a disney princess/prince inside us all, and that ANYONE can claim their happily ever after, by just being them selves~ <3

Ask me anything

May242012

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amazing <3

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absofuckinglutelymagical:

somuchforniceguys:

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Calculus

Harry potter and the Prisoner of Algebra

Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Theorem.

Harry Potter and Chamber of Calculus (provided)

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Algebra (provided)

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Analysis

Harry Potter and the Order of Operations

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Statistician

Harry Potter and the Deathly Algorithms

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May182012

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May172012

A need of change

I am In need of it. some simple change. with the way i act, with my ideals, with my scenery, with my situations, with my friends, with my life style, with my LIFE.

Nothing huge, because i will be able to do that next year hopefully when i start new in melbourne…if i can earn enough money ;)
but just with some minor things….so i dont feel suffocated, so i don’t have this pit in my stomach, so i can find new friends, reconnect with ones i haven’t been as close to, and try to see if the others hearts will grow fonder with my absence.
this last week i have been very contemplative in this subject, now it’s time to set things into motion :)
~<3

May162012

ponies…..

I worked a cover shift today in the afternoon, as well as the morning, and i was so BUGGERED! 9 hours of standing on a sore ankle…BALDERDASH!! oh well, extra money for me ;) yay!
i found a “my little pony” stamp under my counter today (we all have stamps to give the kids ;) and it instantly made me think of dani!! TEHE! ahh i adore that girl…and at the same time shake my fist at her for making me into a brony and noticing that kind of stuff!
in other news…. my hands hurt D: i dislike very much having to deal with eczema *le sigh*
but all will be well eventually. in the mean time, im going to watch some ponies before i go to bed, BAHAHHAA!!
~<3

May152012

Frustrated and at a loss at what to do!

My sister called on skype yesterday, she mentioned to mum that she was going to get her one of those weightloss planned packaged meal things, which i was happy about because, i will be moving soon, and i cant stay close to her to monitor what she eats, tell her no, and get her to move about. i’ve been trying to organize things when i can, find her a plan, find someone who can help her.
she outright said no. it was the kind of no that said “i don’t WANT to change.”
later on when i confronted her about it she said “whats the point.”
….whats the point?
whats the fucking POINT!??
i wanted to scream at her ” do you WANT to die before i get married or have kids? do you WANT to waste away to nothing? do you want to continue living as a disabled woman because you have so much weight on your joints that you cant move without assistance? do you want to be in constant pain for the rest of your life, however long that is? your being so SELFISH! not only to your children, grandchildren and the people who love you, but to YOURSELF!! i WANT to be able to walk down the road and shop with my mother! i WANT my friends and loved ones to meet you, and not have to worry what they may think or say! i WANT to be able to smile and play and say ‘thats my mother!’ to be able to do silly things like scale play equipment, to have you sit beside me while we watch movies, to take you out for a blind date, to help you find someone to spend your life with! i WANT that MOTHER that i never had the chance to have! that confident, funny, fun loving woman i know you USED to be, but don’t give a shit about now! i never got what your other children had the chance to have. i’ll be lucky if i don’t have to organize my first funeral alone and scared before im 30!
WHATS THE POINT!???!???!? THAT’S THE FUCKING POINT!!!!!”

she blames everything on her depression, and im sick of it. so so sick of it. she doesn’t even try, she says she does, but i’ve lived with her for 20 years, i KNOW her, i know what shes like, and what she does, and she does nothing to try and improve her life and health. its just one excuse after the other. my sister has been through severe depression, i have secretly been through it, and that is NOT what is happening! shes trying to find excuses for the way things are, thinks she cant do anything, constantly puts herself down. it’s not the sort of depression you cant do anything about, it’s the title you give yourself when you don’t give a damn! giving up before you even do anything. i love her so so much, but i’ve had ENOUGH!! how can she say that!! there IS a point, just open your eyes!!

im at a loss, a complete loss on what do do. if i had the money, i would find someone, SOMEWHERE, that could be with her every day, give her the proper nutrition, train her, re wire her brain to want to actually DO this! i know, even if she had the money, she would do it for herself, but being declared bankrupt, there is nothing she can do for herself. no one that can help her.
i am really at a loss. what can i do?
does anyone, anywhere, have the tiniest bit of advice? anyone out there that could help her? SOMEHOW!?! i’ve tried all i can, i have a limit on what i can do for her…..I don’t want to lose my mother……Please, someone help her…….
pic from 2010